The cure for restlessness is rest.

February 28 2010 - Day four of a new anxiety

What would my book of revelations look like? Well, like everyone else, I look towards my dreams for inspiration. But what happens to one's aspirations when their dreams have been invaded by ghosts? Old spirits coming in and out of your world everyday. The phantoms that haunt you during the day persist, and continue through the night. I've had a revelation tonight. I also had one last night. The images in your mind while you're asleep at night are truly the most frightening things you will ever see. Because these visions are real, and really yours.

So what happens when you can't sleep, and you put the TV on? Space out. Oh, a science fiction soap opera. I hear the floor creaking with every step.

step. step. step. no peace. no peace. no peace.
no quiet. no peace. no quiet.

People will certainly treat you like a stranger, and then ask you to not be one. People also love irony, attempts at being clever, petty altercations, and half assed attempts of self education. See, I think the scene in "A Clockwork Orange" where the writer is sitting at his desk working on something and has no idea that his wife is about to be raped and murdered is a figment of the creator's own nightmares. The image is so vivid, that I can still see all of the details of the house. There's no other place that this scene could have come from except the bad dreams of the person who wrote the story.

Guess what? What?
It's quiet now. Oh.
Guess what else? What's that?
People have been consuming alcohol tonight.
Oh. So what?
Don't you know what that means?
No, what... they were exchanging
ideas with one another?
No. It means that they are morphing into something else.
An ugly shape, really. It's as predictable as false wood grain.

It's important that we all have little buddies. Somebody who needs us. We certainly don't need ourselves. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise. They, meaning "anybody", care only about this damned system that they've developed and embrace.

But don't embrace the crazies too hard,
they might just bite your ear off.